GoldenEagle
Well-Known Member
I feel I need to write this .… to give thanks to God and thank those here who’ve ministered to (often unknowingly through something written) and prayed for me over the years.
About 2 years ago - feels a LOT longer! - a problem began in my life. It was actually active before then but wasn’t at the forefront of my circumstances. Since then it’s snowballed and been something which has tormented and repeatedly sabotaged me. There have been breaks, times when I thought things were getting a bit better…before continuing on yet again in ways I hadn’t even envisaged.
It’s felt unfair, unjust, impossible, utterly fruitless and pointless. I’ve taken it to the foot of the cross, picked it right back up again, prayed some more, decided I’m absolutely definitely going to sort this out once and for all - failed….repeat whole cycle and repeat.
Well, yesterday and today God has delivered me. I’ve cried a lot both days…but healing tears where I’ve felt the yoke of oppression breaking and pain being washed out of me. I’ve seen His hand and been filled with His peace. What’s more, I’m seeing the jigsaw pieces from this being put in place as part of the big picture of what God is doing in my life. Before yesterday I couldn’t see any of this…and this has boosted my faith that God can still yet do this in other areas of my life where things have made no sense which is something I’ve been praying for over the years.
Rom 8:28 And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
It’s both amazing and humbling that the God of the bible, is so actively and intrinsically at work in our lives through the finished work of the cross. To actually see the outworking….that God can work in even me…with all my issues and struggles and failings….in the midst of ‘my mess’….it makes Jesus so personal - His death on the cross so personal. My heart is truly full of praise for Him today.
About 2 years ago - feels a LOT longer! - a problem began in my life. It was actually active before then but wasn’t at the forefront of my circumstances. Since then it’s snowballed and been something which has tormented and repeatedly sabotaged me. There have been breaks, times when I thought things were getting a bit better…before continuing on yet again in ways I hadn’t even envisaged.
It’s felt unfair, unjust, impossible, utterly fruitless and pointless. I’ve taken it to the foot of the cross, picked it right back up again, prayed some more, decided I’m absolutely definitely going to sort this out once and for all - failed….repeat whole cycle and repeat.
Well, yesterday and today God has delivered me. I’ve cried a lot both days…but healing tears where I’ve felt the yoke of oppression breaking and pain being washed out of me. I’ve seen His hand and been filled with His peace. What’s more, I’m seeing the jigsaw pieces from this being put in place as part of the big picture of what God is doing in my life. Before yesterday I couldn’t see any of this…and this has boosted my faith that God can still yet do this in other areas of my life where things have made no sense which is something I’ve been praying for over the years.
Rom 8:28 And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
It’s both amazing and humbling that the God of the bible, is so actively and intrinsically at work in our lives through the finished work of the cross. To actually see the outworking….that God can work in even me…with all my issues and struggles and failings….in the midst of ‘my mess’….it makes Jesus so personal - His death on the cross so personal. My heart is truly full of praise for Him today.