I am so touched by your testimony! It’s good that you’ve come here to fellowship with other believers - you’ll be loved and prayed for. In fact, I’ll pray for you right now! Welcome!!I am a new member and I was encouraged to share my testimony with you all. I want to say hello first and foremost and thank you all for being a part of this wonderful community!
I grew up in a southern Baptist household. My grandfather and uncle were both pastors. My mom and dad got divorced when I was coming into middle school due to my dad leaving to be with another woman. Growing up without a good father role model, puts a strain on a relationship with Christ, or it did for me. I didn’t trust God. I didn’t want a Father. I can only see this, at the age of 27, as the reason why I rebelled. I turned to drugs and drinking at 18. I was a mess for years. I found a good church at 19 and stayed there faithfully on Sundays, even at my worst of times. When I was 22 I got arrested 3 times. My last stay in jail was the longest, 4 days. I went down in my hour out and went to grab a book and the only book was called How to Pray. I read it over and over. I felt God hold my hand when I asked Him to. I asked Him to come into my heart. I asked Him not to get me sober, but to help me not enjoy the drugs and alcohol. I didn’t need strength, I needed the enjoyment gone. I was taken to court the fourth morning. I told God when I prayed I wouldn’t ask for a sign for Him to show me He was with me, but I would for the fist time, trust Him. When I got in the car, the officer turned it on and Christian music played. I wept. My attorney I had fired showed up, by God’s Grace only. I was set free. I came home and threw away all drugs and paraphernalia. A couple of times in the following two years, I went back but I always came out of it. Now, it has been almost 3 years of sobriety. God saved me in that jail. He changed my heart. My pastor moved back to California after preaching for 7 years. I still keep in contact with him. I haven’t found a new church home, but I bounce around and I study my Bible at home. Life is hard and while I am in a hard season now with some debilitating anxiety issues, I turn to God. I turn to my family. Prayers saved me, mine and theirs. I know that they will save me this time too. I will keep my eyes on my rescuer! He has blessed me so. I have started tithing in the last month and have experienced some major mental spiritual warfare for that. I keep growing in my faith and I know yet another season of deliverance is coming. I love every single one of you on this forum. I’m praying daily for the Rapture of the Church! I can’t wait for the day we all go home.