GodsGirl4Ever
Active Member
I remember the day I got saved. It was March 2019, the best day of my life.
It was such a turning point in my life. I have to say that now, amidst all the chaos going on, and getting more crazy by the day, I have peace. This peace didn't come from me....that would be impossible. This is a supernatural peace and God-my Father in heaven has given it to me. Without Him, I would have joined the many who have taken their lives.
I would have missed out on God's mercy and forgiveness and the opportunity to be in His family. I say this because before I came to a saving grace in Jesus Christ, all I could think about was death...my own death.
I was deep in despair, hopelessly depressed and desperately looking for love and affection & acceptance in all the wrong places. I am survivor of child abuse and pedophilia. I was drinking daily and using drugs, and eventually ended up in prostitution. My friends were also addicts and we all made excuses for our awful lives and each other's bad behavior. Drama and gossip were the norm and getting 'stabbed' in the back was a regular occurrence. I trusted no one and just wanted out. Suicidal thoughts were constantly running through my mind. I thought "If I were dead, then this nightmare would end."
I began to seek answers and found myself in the 'new age' community. For almost 12 years I witnessed and experienced the most horrific events of my life. I unknowingly walked into a pit of demonic teachings and practices that would take me down the darkest roads of my life. The many 'teachers' and 'healers' told me they could show me the pathway to everything and to 'god'. They told me lies upon lies to get my money, energy and time. Distraction was the name of the game and I fell for it, hook, line and sinker.
It was all a deception that kept me from learning the truth about God and His Word! I fell for it all, over and over. I took the bait and came up empty every time. The promised pots of gold never came and the enlightenment only showed up as more darkness. I studied and followed the teachings to the letter but nothing changed and only got worse.
The endless webinars, classes, videos and books just pulled me more into the sewer of deceit. I was swimming in the evil teachings in the devil's playground and he had me going in endless circles. I would think, "Just one more class...that will do it...then I will get what I want and really be somebody!" I was so stupid. I was the queen of stupid!
Wow...I lied to myself constantly to soothe my self and to make excuses for the endless failures. I had no idea that I was really consorting with witches and warlocks, occult teachings and black magic...and I was so naive. And... they knew it and kept dangling carrots in front of me. I was such a fool! My life was a living nightmare. I began to have paranormal experiences that scared the daylights out of me.
Apparitions manifesting before my eyes...physical abuse from invisible hands.....and voices yelling at me from all sides. Smells pervaded my home that could not be explained. I was having out of body experiences and would lose hours of time and not know why. I would wake up in the middle of the night with every light on in my home and footsteps walking all around me. My bed would shake constantly and I experienced satanic ritual abuse which left me with a paralyzing case of PTSD. I was afraid to go to bed, scared to death of falling asleep.
I had opened a Pandora's box of hellish experiences.
I was devastated, exhausted and had no where to hide from it all. I was sure I was losing my mind. One time in the very early hours of the morning, I woke up and was sitting straight up in my bed. I was hollering out-loud to God to help me.
Tears were streaming down my face. I had been crying for a good while. This shocked me. I truly questioned my own sanity, but it served a mighty purpose because sometime later, that prayer was answered. The darkness began to lift a bit and some of God's love started to shine and show me the way to Him. I wasn't fully aware of it, but I was on the path to redemption. From this point on, there were small positive shifts and good things began to happen for me.
Then something rather amazing that surprised even me.
I had an uncontrollable urge to attend church. This was huge because I never ever wanted anything to do with God or Jesus in my adult life. I even found Christians sort of disgusting to be around.
But....something was afoot. God was working in my life and He was preparing me for that great turning point.
All my cravings for alcohol and drugs began to fade away.... toxic habits began to leave me and as I continued to attend church, a peace began to slowly take a-hold in me. It was the only peace I had ever felt and I wanted more! ... and I wanted to know God. Most of the churches I went to didn't feel right so I began to attend church online.
One afternoon while surfing videos I came across a pastor who explained the gospel of Jesus Christ to me and the gift of salvation. It was an easy to understand explanation and I drank it all in, I comprehended it and immediately said "YES" I want that! For the first time ever, I got it. My stubborn mind really got it and when it dawned on me I was amazed at this opportunity that was being offered to me. Right then and there I believed in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross for me. I believed that He died and rose three days later. In that moment, I got saved! The tears streamed down my face. I was overwhelmed with joy!
There was a tangible feeling inside of me, in my heart and my mind, and I sat in my chair for what seemed like hours, reveling in His splendor.
His Love flowed in and around me and I will never forget the 'lifting' sensation of all the fear and confusion that had been there for my entire life. I know not everyone has this kind of experience, but I did. He was giving me love and tenderness. I cried oceans of joy, and pain from years gone by was released tear by tear. It was like He was right there with me, comforting me and telling me that He loved me.
It is the most exquisite and powerful love I shall ever know. It is the love I have searched for, for so many years.
That choice to accept the gift of salvation began to change me, and in that moment I was saved and washed clean by the blood of Jesus Christ. I have not looked back. That was the crossroads that redirected my soul's destiny--and my final place will be in heaven with Him.
I thank God I am a new creation! His mercy and grace allowed me to be free of all the haunting memories that kept me trapped in addiction and endless agony from memories of my horrific childhood.
He has healed me from the trauma and heartache that spanned over 50 years of my life. He has also helped me to forgive everyone who had ever hurt me and to stop beating myself up, as had become a habit for me. He helps me with challenges and He guides my steps.
Today, obstacles are met in a much different way and I know I can bring all of my troubles to Him. Jesus has stood me up on my new found footing. He has taken away the regret and the shame that tormented me for years. I can recall those days now and still remain in peace. The emotional charge that used to debilitate me has been doused by His grace.
His perfect love is all encompassing, boundless and forever!
He blesses and forgives and He walks us through the fiery trials of life. Oh, there are some tribulations in my life, but I don't go through them alone anymore. He comforts me and He answers prayer. He lives in me and I just can't imagine my life without Him now. So, even in these crazy days, He is my rock and my salvation. He is my peace and joy! As the darkness grows in this world, I am stronger ONLY because of His mercy and wisdom.
Jesus Christ is my everything! I know that He will never leave me, nor forsake me. I know that He is coming for His own any day now. Why do I know this? Because it is stated so in God's word and He doesn't make promises that He doesn't intend to keep.
His promises are SOLID.
He is in control! I trust in Him. He says what He means and He means what He says.
The glory of God in my life is my testimony of His power and His love. No one on this planet could have saved me from that horrible life I was living, but God did!
He has adopted this lost woman and made her His own. The comfort this gives me is indescribable.
Thank you for reading my story.
God bless everyone in Rapture Forums!
It was such a turning point in my life. I have to say that now, amidst all the chaos going on, and getting more crazy by the day, I have peace. This peace didn't come from me....that would be impossible. This is a supernatural peace and God-my Father in heaven has given it to me. Without Him, I would have joined the many who have taken their lives.
I would have missed out on God's mercy and forgiveness and the opportunity to be in His family. I say this because before I came to a saving grace in Jesus Christ, all I could think about was death...my own death.
I was deep in despair, hopelessly depressed and desperately looking for love and affection & acceptance in all the wrong places. I am survivor of child abuse and pedophilia. I was drinking daily and using drugs, and eventually ended up in prostitution. My friends were also addicts and we all made excuses for our awful lives and each other's bad behavior. Drama and gossip were the norm and getting 'stabbed' in the back was a regular occurrence. I trusted no one and just wanted out. Suicidal thoughts were constantly running through my mind. I thought "If I were dead, then this nightmare would end."
I began to seek answers and found myself in the 'new age' community. For almost 12 years I witnessed and experienced the most horrific events of my life. I unknowingly walked into a pit of demonic teachings and practices that would take me down the darkest roads of my life. The many 'teachers' and 'healers' told me they could show me the pathway to everything and to 'god'. They told me lies upon lies to get my money, energy and time. Distraction was the name of the game and I fell for it, hook, line and sinker.
It was all a deception that kept me from learning the truth about God and His Word! I fell for it all, over and over. I took the bait and came up empty every time. The promised pots of gold never came and the enlightenment only showed up as more darkness. I studied and followed the teachings to the letter but nothing changed and only got worse.
The endless webinars, classes, videos and books just pulled me more into the sewer of deceit. I was swimming in the evil teachings in the devil's playground and he had me going in endless circles. I would think, "Just one more class...that will do it...then I will get what I want and really be somebody!" I was so stupid. I was the queen of stupid!
Wow...I lied to myself constantly to soothe my self and to make excuses for the endless failures. I had no idea that I was really consorting with witches and warlocks, occult teachings and black magic...and I was so naive. And... they knew it and kept dangling carrots in front of me. I was such a fool! My life was a living nightmare. I began to have paranormal experiences that scared the daylights out of me.
Apparitions manifesting before my eyes...physical abuse from invisible hands.....and voices yelling at me from all sides. Smells pervaded my home that could not be explained. I was having out of body experiences and would lose hours of time and not know why. I would wake up in the middle of the night with every light on in my home and footsteps walking all around me. My bed would shake constantly and I experienced satanic ritual abuse which left me with a paralyzing case of PTSD. I was afraid to go to bed, scared to death of falling asleep.
I had opened a Pandora's box of hellish experiences.
I was devastated, exhausted and had no where to hide from it all. I was sure I was losing my mind. One time in the very early hours of the morning, I woke up and was sitting straight up in my bed. I was hollering out-loud to God to help me.
Tears were streaming down my face. I had been crying for a good while. This shocked me. I truly questioned my own sanity, but it served a mighty purpose because sometime later, that prayer was answered. The darkness began to lift a bit and some of God's love started to shine and show me the way to Him. I wasn't fully aware of it, but I was on the path to redemption. From this point on, there were small positive shifts and good things began to happen for me.
Then something rather amazing that surprised even me.
I had an uncontrollable urge to attend church. This was huge because I never ever wanted anything to do with God or Jesus in my adult life. I even found Christians sort of disgusting to be around.
But....something was afoot. God was working in my life and He was preparing me for that great turning point.
All my cravings for alcohol and drugs began to fade away.... toxic habits began to leave me and as I continued to attend church, a peace began to slowly take a-hold in me. It was the only peace I had ever felt and I wanted more! ... and I wanted to know God. Most of the churches I went to didn't feel right so I began to attend church online.
One afternoon while surfing videos I came across a pastor who explained the gospel of Jesus Christ to me and the gift of salvation. It was an easy to understand explanation and I drank it all in, I comprehended it and immediately said "YES" I want that! For the first time ever, I got it. My stubborn mind really got it and when it dawned on me I was amazed at this opportunity that was being offered to me. Right then and there I believed in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross for me. I believed that He died and rose three days later. In that moment, I got saved! The tears streamed down my face. I was overwhelmed with joy!
There was a tangible feeling inside of me, in my heart and my mind, and I sat in my chair for what seemed like hours, reveling in His splendor.
His Love flowed in and around me and I will never forget the 'lifting' sensation of all the fear and confusion that had been there for my entire life. I know not everyone has this kind of experience, but I did. He was giving me love and tenderness. I cried oceans of joy, and pain from years gone by was released tear by tear. It was like He was right there with me, comforting me and telling me that He loved me.
It is the most exquisite and powerful love I shall ever know. It is the love I have searched for, for so many years.
That choice to accept the gift of salvation began to change me, and in that moment I was saved and washed clean by the blood of Jesus Christ. I have not looked back. That was the crossroads that redirected my soul's destiny--and my final place will be in heaven with Him.
I thank God I am a new creation! His mercy and grace allowed me to be free of all the haunting memories that kept me trapped in addiction and endless agony from memories of my horrific childhood.
He has healed me from the trauma and heartache that spanned over 50 years of my life. He has also helped me to forgive everyone who had ever hurt me and to stop beating myself up, as had become a habit for me. He helps me with challenges and He guides my steps.
Today, obstacles are met in a much different way and I know I can bring all of my troubles to Him. Jesus has stood me up on my new found footing. He has taken away the regret and the shame that tormented me for years. I can recall those days now and still remain in peace. The emotional charge that used to debilitate me has been doused by His grace.
His perfect love is all encompassing, boundless and forever!
He blesses and forgives and He walks us through the fiery trials of life. Oh, there are some tribulations in my life, but I don't go through them alone anymore. He comforts me and He answers prayer. He lives in me and I just can't imagine my life without Him now. So, even in these crazy days, He is my rock and my salvation. He is my peace and joy! As the darkness grows in this world, I am stronger ONLY because of His mercy and wisdom.
Jesus Christ is my everything! I know that He will never leave me, nor forsake me. I know that He is coming for His own any day now. Why do I know this? Because it is stated so in God's word and He doesn't make promises that He doesn't intend to keep.
His promises are SOLID.
He is in control! I trust in Him. He says what He means and He means what He says.
The glory of God in my life is my testimony of His power and His love. No one on this planet could have saved me from that horrible life I was living, but God did!
He has adopted this lost woman and made her His own. The comfort this gives me is indescribable.
Thank you for reading my story.
God bless everyone in Rapture Forums!
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