Amity
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Hi, my name is Rachel, from Texas (for now, full-time rv'er). I was a member on the rapture ready forums many, many, many years ago. I remember I had been on there for some time before 9/11 happened. I've been a lurker on here for a few years and finally decided to join.
In the last 5 years, I went through an ugly divorce. In my anger, I back slid in my faith badly for a couple of years that I am still very ashamed of. Then in 2017 I was diagnosed with stage 4 nasopharyngeal cancer. It had spread into my skull and down into my chest. I lost my job and insurance. Had to sell my house and got just enough out of my equity to buy an old motorhome. I had to file for disability which took 6 months, and by the time I got to treatment, it was pretty bad and my oncologist gave me 50/50 odds and she said that was generous. I have no adrenal glands so any illness or injury can be deadly if my steriods are not managed to replace the cortisol that i can not longer produce. The headaches and pain from radiation cooking my mouth was horrendous. Chemo almost killed me. Spent more time in icu then I did at home. I cried out to God many times and understood that this is what I needed for the Lord to get my attention. My focus is 100% back on Him. I have some issues I'm working out, forgiveness of my father and people that i had helped in the past, but then couldn't be bothered to help me in my time of need. I'm still emotional about it all, sometimes grateful I made it, other times I wish I hadn't so I could be in heaven and not deal with the anxiety of a post-cancer treatment ragged out body (and paying for all the medical care I need on disability income, Ha!) and be with Jesus looking forward to my pain-free incorruptible body. But, I still have loved ones I need to get through to, and I'm grateful to be here to do that.
In all my years of being a watcher since I was 12 (40 now) even during my backsliding years I kept a close eye on prophetic events. And I have never felt as close to our blessed hope as I do now.
I look forward to chatting with all of you.
Thank you for keeping this forum going!
In the last 5 years, I went through an ugly divorce. In my anger, I back slid in my faith badly for a couple of years that I am still very ashamed of. Then in 2017 I was diagnosed with stage 4 nasopharyngeal cancer. It had spread into my skull and down into my chest. I lost my job and insurance. Had to sell my house and got just enough out of my equity to buy an old motorhome. I had to file for disability which took 6 months, and by the time I got to treatment, it was pretty bad and my oncologist gave me 50/50 odds and she said that was generous. I have no adrenal glands so any illness or injury can be deadly if my steriods are not managed to replace the cortisol that i can not longer produce. The headaches and pain from radiation cooking my mouth was horrendous. Chemo almost killed me. Spent more time in icu then I did at home. I cried out to God many times and understood that this is what I needed for the Lord to get my attention. My focus is 100% back on Him. I have some issues I'm working out, forgiveness of my father and people that i had helped in the past, but then couldn't be bothered to help me in my time of need. I'm still emotional about it all, sometimes grateful I made it, other times I wish I hadn't so I could be in heaven and not deal with the anxiety of a post-cancer treatment ragged out body (and paying for all the medical care I need on disability income, Ha!) and be with Jesus looking forward to my pain-free incorruptible body. But, I still have loved ones I need to get through to, and I'm grateful to be here to do that.
In all my years of being a watcher since I was 12 (40 now) even during my backsliding years I kept a close eye on prophetic events. And I have never felt as close to our blessed hope as I do now.
I look forward to chatting with all of you.
Thank you for keeping this forum going!
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