Hurt

[2010&Saved]

I'm a nooby to the poetry game, so go easy haha!


Hurt

I sit here in the dark, hurt and sad from what I've faced.
I've been talked down, hurt by the ones who love to hate.
Hurt by the ones who I kept so close.
Not behind my back, but right in my face.

A joke to them, fun and games.
It hurt me, like the worst kind of ache.
A horrible pain, nothing but sorrow and shame.

I want to be alone now, just leave me be.
"It will make you a man!" Is what they say.
If that's the case, then a man is not what I want to be!

Your so proud with the ugly things you say!
A swollen ego, filled with envy and hate!
Why is it that your so content, with the evil things you say?
Have you no shame?

I thought you were my friends.
All you are is a pack of wolves, hiding in the skin of sheep!
You pretend to be kind, loving, and gentle.
In reality you are hateful, insecure, and fake!

Just leave me alone!
I want nothing to do with you.
You have hurt me for the last time!
I will go my own way, alone, if it's meant to be.

I would rather be alone anyways, than with you.
All you are is fake!
I will pray, not for myself, but for the next victim you choose to take.
May God be with him, so he may endure your fake love, and your oh so real hate!

As for me, I'm fine as long as I'm not next to you, the ones who love to hate!

[mattfivefour]

Poetry is nothing more than the whispers of the heart. Your heart has obviously been deeply hurt by those whom you held close. And that kind of hurt is very hard to let go of. You expressed your heart very well indeed.

[2010&Saved]

Poetry is nothing more than the whispers of the heart. Your heart has obviously been deeply hurt by those whom you held close. And that kind of hurt is very hard to let go of. You expressed your heart very well indeed.

Thanks :)

Sometimes it makes me glad to have gone through painful times. When you get over it you have a little more wisdom.

[LivnForChrist]

You are a poet.
I think that we all can identify with your poem.

[Meg]

To 2010,

Your lovely poem reminds me of my school years when I was a kid. Don't let the haters have any power over you, they're liars. Listen to the One who loves you and be determined to believe what He says. And reserve the right to choose your friends, then keep the good ones.

Robert told me a while back that the way people who love me is a lot different than the way I see myself. He's helping me heal... As are my close friends.

[2010&Saved]

Thanks everyone for the kind words! I'm aware that most of what I write is rather gloomy. I have spent a lot of my life seeing it in that sort of way. Thinking of God and what he has in store for us helps though!

[Robert]

I'm a nooby to the poetry game, so go easy haha!


Hurt

I sit here in the dark, hurt and sad from what I've faced.
I've been talked down, hurt by the ones who love to hate.
Hurt by the ones who I kept so close.
Not behind my back, but right in my face.

A joke to them, fun and games.
It hurt me, like the worst kind of ache.
A horrible pain, nothing but sorrow and shame.

I want to be alone now, just leave me be.
"It will make you a man!" Is what they say.
If that's the case, then a man is not what I want to be!

Your so proud with the ugly things you say!
A swollen ego, filled with envy and hate!
Why is it that your so content, with the evil things you say?
Have you no shame?

I thought you were my friends.
All you are is a pack of wolves, hiding in the skin of sheep!
You pretend to be kind, loving, and gentle.
In reality you are hateful, insecure, and fake!

Just leave me alone!
I want nothing to do with you.
You have hurt me for the last time!
I will go my own way, alone, if it's meant to be.

I would rather be alone anyways, than with you.
All you are is fake!
I will pray, not for myself, but for the next victim you choose to take.
May God be with him, so he may endure your fake love, and your oh so real hate!

As for me, I'm fine as long as I'm not next to you, the ones who love to hate!

I'm so sorry, 2010&saved. I've lived all of that, and I feel for you.

A few things I have learned, if I may:

1) "Jokes" that hurt may not be jokes: A lot of times, people can say things inadvertently that they don't mean to be hurtful. But in some cases, a "joke" that hurts may be disguised animosity, jealousy, or simple meanness disguised. "Friends" who do this on a regular basis may not be as much your friends as you may think, and can be quite toxic. If they keep hurting you in spite of you asking them to stop, you should probably start questioning whether they really are your friends.

2) "Being a man" is not a question of how tough someone is: Anyone can demonstrate how physically or emotionally resilient they are. But being a man is not about how much abuse one can take or how much hurt one can endure without crying out. Christ demonstrated perfectly what being a man was truly about; He stood up for the truth, did not back down on what was right, carried out His task to the end, and cared for the poor, oppressed, weak and defenseless. All of that takes far more courage and intestinal fortitude than the swaggering bravado that modern culture seeks to establish as "manhood". Abusing someone to "make a man out of them" is no such thing; it is merely a disguised form of emotional sadism, with those practicing it seeking to take their own hurt out on another without appearing as the very thing that hurt them in the first place.

3) The most hateful people can often have the most beautiful veneer: I'm not talking about mere physical appearances, but social standing and the act that a person can put on amongst others. Some folks out there can act as if they are kind and thoughtful, but in truth they put it on as a disguise for their real motives. No, not all people are like this, but as the old saying goes: "you catch more flies with honey than with vinegar". This is why Christ tells us that we will "know them by their fruits".; a person can put on an act of decency and kindness, but it can only last for so long before the truth comes out.

If people that are supposed to be your friends are hurting you and laughing about your pain, claiming "it will make you a man", they were never your friends to begin with!!! Real friends do not do that to one another, and they certainly don't seek to hurt another to satisfy their own emotional shortcomings. And frankly, such folks should be utterly ashamed of themselves for their actions, but it is symptomatic of the world we live in today where "evil is good and good is evil". In any event, you have it right: its' better to get away from such individuals and to find friends who love you for who you are. But remember to pray for those who hurt you; they are lost and at one time, we were just as lost as they are.

Finally, keep in mind that what God says about you is far more important than what these people would ever say to you. God loved you enough to send his only begotten Son to die on the cross for you and provide for you a way to be reconciled back to the Father. That God loves you so much speaks volumes against the hurtful, evil things anyone else may ever say, because in the end analysis, God's opinion is the one that really matters! And one day, the words they spoke will be brought out in record, and the Lord will rebuke those words with the truth. If they have not repented of their sins and have been saved by Jesus' cleansing blood, those words will bear record against them when they stand before God Himself.

Bro, I'm so sorry that you were hurt by such people But know that we see you as a fellow brother in Christ, and that the lord Himself knows the truth about you. Don't let the poison of their vitriol and spite fester inside, but instead give it to the Lord and let him deal with it. Meantime, this poem of yours speaks powerfully; it gives voice to the hurt that not only you, but many others have felt as well.

Hang in there bro; our God is not done with His awesome work just yet!

YBIC,


-Robert