I'm trying to put the words together.
Well when I was 7-8 years old I was sexually abused, that lasted until I was about 15. (I'm 59 now) I held it in until I was about 40.
Excuse me I can't put it all in words.
My mother was phisically abusive.
At 40 I had to try to help my nice who lived by herself because friends of hers at work said she was trying to drink herself to death, during the time my wife and I was struggling to help her she was talking to her mother on the phone as her mom lived in Colorado, and we lived in NY, as my niece was talking to her she said she had been abused sexually abused since she was about 3 years old, well it was like you threw a spear through my heart.
Then while we lived in Texas my wife had numerous lovers, I could not stand it because It went around my job so finally i just move back here to NY where I'm origanlly from. We are still married for now 35 years now and I still feal the pain from time to time. At 50 years old my Grand daughter drowned which destroyed me, ever since I'v been on different meds, my main point is I would like to help others deal with problems like these because I know at first it seems like God isn't around or does not love you, but thats not correct some people deal with things fine, while others don't this is the ones I would like to try to help. I'm sorry but I must leave now but I will get back and continue asap.