I didn't see a place where I could post introductions, so I'll keep it brief: I was saved when I was three, and since then I've been committed to spreading God's word wherever I go. Jesus tells us to spread His Love to as many people as we can before the Rapture hits!!
However, I recently switched to a new school. With this economic crisis, my parents can't afford to send me to a godly Christian private school, and because they're working all the time to make ends meet, they can't homeschool me either. So I have to go to a public school. I realize that they teach sinful, depraved things to their students, but look on the bright side: there are more unsaved people there than there are at Christian schools or when I homeschool.
Anyway, when I got there, the only class open was the Philosophy course. There's a lot of debate and argument in that class! Fortunately, the teacher (God bless him!) doesn't get in the way when I tell the class about God in my debates. He's not like the other anti-religious faculty at the school whose eyes burn with hatred whenever they see my Bible camp tee shirt. He wants students to speak their mind.
But I always come into conflict with the same person over and over again. There's this girl in the class who is an atheist. I know that there are some moral arguments to use when witnessing to atheists, but she's a nihilist, which means she believes that there is no ultimate foundation for ethics. Honestly, she scares me a bit. Whenever I shoot down an argument of hers, she sits down and stares at me from across the room with evil, evil eyes. For a moment I thought they had reptilian pupils, but I was probably just seeing things. All I know about her is that she is bullied by many people... And with the way she spouts hatred about God unrepentantly, I fear that I can't reach her. Maybe it's demons, maybe it's just spiritual blindness.
She told me, "Even if God did say, 'Thou shalt not kill', why should you follow him? You can't derive an 'ought' from an 'is'."
Once she even said that not only should abortion be legal throughout the entire pregnancy, but that people should be able to kill their children right after they're born.
I don't want to lose my faith, but ever since then I can't help but obsess over doubts about God and Jesus and His plan for us. They spiral around in my head constantly. "What if God isn't real? What if I'm living a lie?" Then, the last time I was in Church, praying for guidance, I suddenly had an evil urge to blaspheme the Holy Spirit! I try to rid myself of the thoughts by calling upon Jesus' name, but they just come back twice as strong as before. I'm afraid I'm going to become too evil for even Jesus to save.
I joined this forum because you people seem very nice and knowledgeable and supportive. How do I deal with this Satanic onslaught? I'm sorry if this seems too long to read.