This subject ... of sinning deeply after having received the knowledge of the gospel and so being cast away from His Presence forever ... has touched me. I, too, went through a period when I felt all hope was gone. But, you see, I just did not understand the richness or the height and depth and breadth of the love of God that He has shed on us in Jesus.
I was listening to Jason Crabb tonight tell the story of his dad—a man who had walked away from the Lord and wound up divorced, then remarried, and finally a broken down alcoholic with six kids. Jason said, after all of this and after years of wandering, his dad was alone one rainy day in the small car wash he ran when he heard God speak to him and say, "Gerald, I still love you." Tears began streaming down his face and he got down on his knees in the mud of that car wash and said to God, "I still love you, too. I am so sorry. Please forgive me." He was restored by the love of God, pastored a small church in Kentucky, and became one of the great gospel song writers of all time.
You see, when we first truly turn to God, He never lets go of us. His love for us is beyond anything we can imagine. If we have ever truly wanted to serve Him, He will always work to bring us back and make us into what He has destined us to be.
Out of Gerald Crabb's experience came his first great gospel song:
Please Forgive Me. Jason and the rest of the Crabb family sing this song below. The lyrics follow.
I pray that if anybody feels that they have gone too far from God that Gerald Crabb's story will convince them of the everlasting love of God ... for THEM. He doesn't just love mankind in general: He loves YOU. You, the individual. The one reading this. With all your faults. With all your fears. With all your failings. With all that you have done. Call out to Him, dear one, He
will restore you and make you a pillar in His church.
My sleep is gone, my heart is full of sorrow,
I cant believe how much I've let you down.
I dread the pain that waits for me tomorrow
When the sun reveals my broken dreams scattered on the ground.
Chorus:
Please forgive me;
I need your grace to make it through.
All I have is you, I'm at your mercy.
Lord, i'll serve you
Until my dying day,
And help others find the way
At your mercy.
Please forgive me
I cant believe the God of earth and glory
Would take the time to care for one like me;
But I read in the Bible that old story
How he plead for my forgiveness while He was dying on a tree
Chorus:
Please forgive me;
I need your grace to make it through.
All I have is you, I'm at your mercy.
Lord, I'll serve you
Until my dying day,
And help others find the way
At your mercy.
Please forgive me.
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