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Hopeful

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ShilohRose
, January-6th-2012 at 11:36 PM (145 Views)
I am trying to be hopeful, but it is difficult. I've had so much pain today from these two chronic medical conditions-- so many meds and one of them aggravates a different problem. Ugh. I go back to the dr. on Monday. Maybe she will be pleased with the slight bit of progress I've made. It is very debilitating. No physical church for me, and it disturbs me that because I cannot go, no one in my house goes. So--- I am hoping that maybe this year, one of the medical issues will be resolved, and I can find a church and go back to living in such a way that is good for my husband and my children. I know the Lord has used it to draw me closer to Him, in spite of all of the messes I have made in my life. There is nothing like living in perpetual clean-up mode. (Stress really makes the pain more intense.) I am also hopeful that I can get one of the biggest messes all cleaned up soon, and perhaps I'll better distinguish between what I really want and what my old nature is trying to do-- reassert control. I think I have just lately been doing better at that. Jesus has brought me to the point where I am reevaluating what is important and what isn't. I am surprised to see what things are merely bad, old habits that I really don't want to do anymore. I am praying for a major breakthrough. It's not that I expect I won't sin anymore, but I hope to be more in tune with God's ways and plans, and I hope that I will listen better.

I want to come back and update this blog occasionally. Perhaps I will see some progress.

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  1. king'sbloomingrose's Avatar
    Shiloh, You're not alone. God walks thru this with you and He will help you. Praying!
  2. Hannah's Avatar


    I too move from one chronic illness to another. You deal with one of your chronic illnesses only to make the other worse. I am in the middle of a number of Specialists dealing with various areas but they don't seem to want to communicate with my other doctors and it is frustrating. My family doctor tries his best to be an intermediary. I am only going because last time I left things go for too long ended up I had a bowel tumour. By the grace of God it was operated on before it became cancerous but it was so big they had to do a bowel resection.

    I too have not been to Church for a very long time. Every time I think I get healthy enough to go I literally get sick again before the weekend and I'm flat on my back by Sunday.

    I understand what you are saying about stress making things worse.

    We can only lift it all to Jesus. God is not ignoring our prayers. I am sure He is working diligently through our situations. Trust Him is all I can offer you. You can pray for your family and for your concerns about them not getting good teaching each week through a Church service. I know the Lord is working there with your situation. Be patient and just continue to put it all before Him.

    What is impossible for man is not impossible for God. The Lord can work in any situation.

    Praying for your health issues, for your doctors to be guided by the Lord and for your healing. Praying for the Lord to be drawing your family to Himself, removing all obsticles and hinderances the devil has put in their way to stop them from seeking God's Word. Praying for only God's will and purposes to be fulfilled in your life and that of your family, In Jesus Name Amen.