If I may Kathy,
First off:
God doesn't punish us for what he knows we cannot do, anymore than he expects the moon to give off it's own light without the sun. God allows things in our lives, so for him to punish us for what he has allowed is not within his character.
Secondly, I am in a similar position: I am disabled, and cannot get out much to speak to others because I have to care for my dad. But I found a voice online, here at RF. God doesn't limit us in what means we may use; he only expects a return on the gifts he has given us.
Finally, Adrian is correct: God judges us on what we have done with our gifts. Don't think of the Bema Seat as a court judgment, but as an awards ceremony. In Ancient Greece, they would set a seat,the "Bema Seat", out for the Master of the Games to award wreaths (crowns) to the players who won.
Yes, each of us will stand before him; but keep this verse in mind:
"Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death. For what the Law could not do, weak as it was through the flesh, God did: sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh, 4so that the requirement of the Law might be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit." (Romans 8:1-4, NASB, emphasis mine)
God PROMISES us that we will NOT be condemned in ANY way! Jesus, who will be presiding over the Bema Seat judgments, is NOT sitting there will a rolled up newspaper, ready to whack you!!! Instead, he is there to determine what rewards you will have in eternity.
Kathy, my advice to you is to bring this to the Lord in prayer. A couple of years ago, i too was upset because I didn't know how I would be able to serve him, and someone I wrote to at RR's main site advised me to ask the Lord.
The result? Ask Adrian and everyone else here.
I'll be in prayer for you sis.

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